Of Witches and Waiting

All Hallows Eve is upon us and as I sat writing up a cover letter for a job, going on and on about my skills and my thirst for learning, I realized that an area that I lack knowledge in is the area of witchcraft. Now, don’t freak out. Just because I lean Orthodox doesn’t…

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Hey God, It’s Me Again

Hey God, Well, here we are again. Another relapse, another bounceback. Still angry. Still confused. Still going. I’m really feeling the weight of the past and the pain of relationships lost. Yet I’m not sure why. I have new friends and I have beautiful relationships that I want to cherish, but the past seems to…

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“Re”calling

Maybe you can relate to this one. Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that God led you to something; that it was your calling? How about this: have you ever been all-in fully committed to that calling and God came in and led you to something…

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Praying for Snakes.

In the midst of the tumultuous twists and turns of life, I’ve been very contemplative of my relationship with God. This, of course, is far too complex a subject to really flesh out in a blog post, but I can hit a couple key points. First and foremost, I want to make it very clear…

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Places and Faces

Here. Here I sit in a Starbuck on the corner of 18th and Columbia, nestled between Lanier Heights and Adams Morgan. In Roanoke, I’m just another face in the crowd. Here, I’m not even sure that I’m that. When I decided to come up to D.C. for the weekend, I told people I wanted to…

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Carpe Noctem: A Promise

It is no secret that I have struggled with depression and anxiety for the majority of my life. From time to time I have even had to confront the dark face of death as the temptation of suicide waxed and waned through the seasons of my life. Recently, I faced such a season as I…

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Rollercoaster

Nine months ago I walked out the door of my home in Kansas City for the last time. With my stuff packed up into a trailer, I departed from the best job of my life and took off into the unknown. Why did I leave? Over time, I found myself growing more and more unhealthy.…

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Fight On

I never wanted to join the army. I always assumed that I would fail as a soldier. I believed I was both physically and emotionally incapable of serving adequately. Though this is untrue, I found myself fighting a different war anyway. It is a much older, intangible war. A war of the soul. Most importantly (to me),…

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Reflectors

Have you ever had that kind of deja vu that feels more like looking in a mirror than living a broken record? I’m talking about those weird moments when someone says or does something and you immediately think, “ah hell…I do that same thing…” A number of people in my life have played the role of…

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From the Lips of Divinity.

Cheezy Christian phrases are available daily BOGO free, and you don’t have to go far to find them. When I lived in Kansas City, there was a man who would talk to me about “receiving kisses from God,” and it always made me feel uncomfortable. It was a phrase that was too intimate and too…

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