I got up at 6 AM to get ready for work last Thursday. I went outside into the dark and looked up at the stars. The reality of winter’s arrival was all too obvious by the decreasing daylight. I drove to work and sat in my car while I waited for the doors to be unlocked so I could get started.
I was playing Words With Friends when I looked up and realized that sunlight was shining in my face as it creeped out over the mountain. I was taken aback by the sudden realization that it was no longer dark. The stars were gone and the sunrise was in full swing.
Back at Shelterwood, I would hear the words “trust the process slipping past the lips of my boss as she sought to encourage those present on parents’ week and every time we had a new resident entering the program.
Staff and parents alike became frustrated by these words with each time we heard them. Now that I am out of the residential life, I find myself going through my own “process” and I’m finding whole new meaning to that annoying little phrase. It frustrates me, but only because I see the relevance in a much more personal way.
When I left Shelterwood to begin a pilgrimage of healing and spiritual growth, I found myself struggling constantly. I was emotional, hurt, lonely, and I questioned everything that I did and what I was supposed to do. I would often hear those words in my mind.
“Trust the process”
New challenges presented themselves as I sought to find sources of income, counseling, and spiritual guidance, but God also presented Himself in very personal, intimate ways. It wasn’t long before I began to realize that after all those years of loving and serving families at Shelterwood, God was taking me through my own “program.” I had become the “resident” and God was taking me through my own process.
I look back at where I was 5 months ago and I think, “Woah…when did that happen? When did I change?”
That’s often how it all works. You don’t often notice the change or think that you’re making progress until enough time has passed for you to be able to look back and see the day and night differences. If you’re not intentionally watching for the change then you will miss it, just like waiting for the sun to rise.